Again
The goodness of God is beyond my wildest imaginings. And how do I repay that? I argue with Him constantly and refuse to obey…
The other day I had an argument with one of my children. When they were younger, the arguments were so much easier. They said one thing and I said another thing and what I said went…
Now, my children are older. This is really just another way of saying that when they do not wish to do something they simply will not do it. And this is incredibly frustrating. After all, I have never asked my children to do something that was not in their best interests. In fact, sometimes, I ask them to do things that are terribly inconvenient for me simply because it is terribly good for them to do the thing.
For example, it is inconvenient for me to have to work to provide the time and resources that my children need to engage in extracurricular activities like music lessons or sports. It would be far less headache and far less stress for me to simply let my children lounge around the home and do nothing extra and learn nothing extra. And yet, if I were to do this, my children would learn less and they would be less disciplined and they would also be less healthy – as sports are very important for them.
And I have been thinking about this today as I have been thinking about my Beloved. God is after all, my eternal Parent. And He is a perfect Parent. He is asking me to do things that might lead to inconvenience for Him but are in my best interests. For example, it is far less inconvenient for God to allow me to be damned to Hell than it is for Him to save me through His Grace. It would cost God exactly nothing if He were to allow me to fail. He could simply sit back and ignore my existence. And what would happen as a result of that? Nothing to God – God is al-perfect and all-powerful! But what would happen to me? Well, I would cease to exist. God could obliterate me entirely – He could extinguish my entire soul by a single sniff or a single flicker of thought…
And it occurred to me today that every time God allows me to receive a Sacrament. Every time He allows me to be forgiven He allows me to try again. And what an inconvenience this is to Him. After all, it would be much easier for God to simply allow me to fail. It would be so much easier for God to simply allow me to end. And instead – even though I ignore His Command, and even though I argue with His GOODNESS – God give me a chance to try again, and again and again…
And I have been thinking about that today as I have been thinking about my own children because the one thing that is for sure, is that God loves me more than I love them, and He wants for me more than I could ever imagine for them. And that means the goodness of God is beyond my wildest imaginings. And how do I repay that? I argue with Him constantly and refuse to obey…
Poor God. My poor, poor God…
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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