Trust

Even though trusting in silence was more painful than anything imaginable, the Blessed Virgin trusts God so completely that she surrendered to this injustice – the most terrible injustice in the world.

Christ with the Virgin Mary and Saint John the Evangelist (Rebecca Dulcibella)

The Blessed Virgin trusted God.  She listened to an Angel and then put into motion things that he directed her to do.

She did not over think thing.  She did not try to see the end of her path.  Instead, she considered the words that she was told – pondering them in her heart and choosing to trust in God.

She listened to the voice of God so well and trusted Him so completely that she never stopped to consider the cost of that trust.  She never stopped to think that it would be inconvenient to accept God’s Will.  She did not try to resist a trip to the Hill Country of Judea to visit her elderly cousin who was pregnant with her child, Saint John the Baptist.  She did not consider that she had some other plans that she would like to put into place before that trip.  Rather, she got up and went – with perfect trust.

When she was told that she would need to travel to Bethlehem for the census, she did not stop and consider it.  She did not think that maybe it would be inconvenient being so heavily pregnant.  She knew that if God wished to stop that journey, He would stop it.  She knew later that is God wanted to stop her flight to Egypt, He would stop it.  If He wished to stop her return to Nazareth, He would do that too.

All of this was part of the formation of the most beautiful soul that God has ever and will ever create…

You see, the Blessed Virgin was so perfectly attuned to the Holy Will of God that even when Christ was unjustly judged she stood in silence.  She did not go and get help.  She did not need any help – she had God Himself.  And God Himself knows all things and was able to stop things if He wished.  And even though trusting in silence was more painful than anything imaginable, the Blessed Virgin trusts God so completely that she surrendered to this injustice – the most terrible injustice in the world.

And I have been reflecting on this today as I have been thinking about what it is that God is asking of me…  You see, I have not suffered as the Blessed Virgin suffers.  I have not watched perfect JUSTICE slaughtered by the most evil sin.  I have not been asked to stand silently while God allows the work to be done.  I have been asked to trust in my Beloved Father who has given me only good.  And even so, I am completely overcome and unable to show my God that I trust in Him.  Rather, I spend my days and nights arguing about how God should do things my way and not His way…

And when I stop and think about that today I am so so sorry.  For I have hurt my Beloved beyond measure, not only though my sinfulness, but through my terrible lack of trust in Him.

My poor poor God.  My infinitely patient God!

For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.