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He knew as a consequence, that God the Son would choose to suffer and die to atone for our sins.

The Virgin Mary (Saatchi)

At the beginning of time, when the world was created and first began and God created human beings, He knew – because He is PERFECT and INFALLIBLE and ALL-KNOWING – that we would fail.  He knew that we would be weak, and He knew that Original Sin would ruin everything.  He knew as a consequence, that God the Son would choose to suffer and die to atone for our sins.

And more than all of this…  He still went ahead with the whole thing.  Despite the fact that there were no surprises, God choose, freely, to create us humans.  And He choose to do this even despite the fact that He has not NEED for us.  After all, God is complete and perfect in and of Himself.  He is Perfectly Three Persons – Father, Son and Holy Spirit.  So, even His relationship is perfect and even His love is perfect and that really means that there is nothing lacking, and no gap in what God needs or wants…

And even despite that God created us.

So, the question I am really asking myself is…  Why?

After all, we are of no use to God.  He has no way to benefit from anything that I could possibly offer to Him.  And I have been thinking about this today.  You see, I am weak and a failure in pretty much everything that I say, think and feel.  There is pretty much nothing that I could do that would make it easier.  In fact, my very existence makes God suffer.

So God willingly and lovingly and perfectly allows me to exist and live and be free – even when my life and living and freedom hurts and offends and outrages Him.  And He does it voluntarily.

And I have been thinking about what sort of a love such a thing really is.  After all, if God is able to love me like this – in this way and with enough love in Him to allow me to do whatever I choose.  And I choose so badly.  I choose the wrong thing all the time.  I choose the things that make me unhappy – even when God asks me not to choose those things.  I choose the things that make God unhappy – even when God asks me not to choose those things.

And I get myself into all sorts of mess because I am determined to ignore my God and prioritise my own sinfulness, because I have allowed myself to lull myself into a false sense of security and instead of actually doing anything productive, I am wallowing in my mess.

And it occurs to me today that I must give thanks.  For my God chooses to allow me to survive and live and thrive – even – despite all of the various limitations of my tiny mind and sinful soul.  And He does this knowing – even from the beginning of time – the terribly sinful state of my soul!

For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.